Man, 2017 seemed to crawl by, am I right?
Just kidding. It FLEW.
A few days ago I was remembering something that had happened earlier this year. It literally felt like it happened yesterday. To be honest, it made me really sad. 2017 went by so quickly for me, I could’ve missed it if I blinked.
Yet I don’t feel like the year was wasted. In fact, I feel as if it was one of the best years of my life. I grew a lot in my talents, my walk with God, and my family. I even met some people, and made some friends, which are now my squad. My friends mean a lot to me. For a lot of my life I’ve been the oddball, and quite frankly, I still am. The difference is having friends that accept you and include you, and having ones that don’t. You can probably guess which type my friends are now. ;) Through these people I’ve met even more people, and I continue to be introduced to more, I just marvel at what God has planned for my life and how it continues to play out. 2017 was a year of revelation for me, in a way. I understand more about why things happen, in the order they do. God has a plan for everything.
Yesterday on the way to a New Years party, I was scrolling through Instagram stories on my phone. So many celebrities I follow were recapping the year through photos, and saying how excited they were to begin 2018. To be honest, I was (and still am) scared. 2016 was a rough year, and then 2017 was one of the best of my life. How in the world can 2018 top it? Either 2018 is going to be really good, or really bad. It scares me because I don’t know. At times like this, I have two choices. I can freak out, and rely on my own strength, messing everything up. Or, I can run to God, put my trust in Him, and give Him control over my life. He’s turning everything into good, though I might not be able to see it.
Another thing I’m learning lately is actually related to this blog. Lately I’ve been feeling as if I have too much talent. I know how to sew, take photos, draw, bake, play the piano, blog, and ref soccer games. A lot of the time I feel blessed and thankful I have all these talents to share with people. But even though people who feel like they have no talents envy those with many, life is not all fun and games for people with many talents. So I have a confession to make: I tell myself I am lazy. I tell myself I could be doing more. I could be posting several times a week. I could be setting up amazing photo scenes. I could be baking cakes for people. I could be reffing more soccer games. I could be playing the piano at nursing homes (one bad experience and I’ve never been the same so performing is tough for me). But often I don’t feel like doing anything except lying around. Disappointed, I tell myself to step up my game, and do more. I have these talents, and doesn’t God say in the Bible to use them for Him and proclaim His word with them? In the end though, all I do is end up feeling ashamed. I have too much talent. God should have given some to someone else. I’m going to go to heaven, and God is going to shake his head, and say, “I’ve provided you with this talent, and you didn’t use it to the best of your abilities. You’ve let me down.”
But our God isn’t like that. Remember the verse, Ephesians 2:8 – For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith–and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God.
We are not saved by our works. This includes what we do with our talents or how much we use them. We are saved by faith alone. God gave us this gift called grace. It whispers to us, you are enough. You didn’t earn this grace; you could never do anything to earn it. But yet, you are enough. Talent or no talent.
Then, in the midst of the business of life, we find peace.
Isaiah 40:31 – but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.
Happy New Year! 💫
– Dara 💕